Did it! Manned up and got my nips pierced. Good for you Sam, good for you.

In south Carolina to visit my brother. I really thought that getting out of Delaware would put me in a better state of mind but I honestly still feel put of it. I don’t feel like myself. Feels like I don’t even know who I am without him. Everytime I think I’m getting back on track and getting my life together the depression of not talking to him sinks in. It feels like there’s someone I need to talk to and I know I can’t. I’ve never need to be held so much in my life and there’s no one to do it. I would give anything for one more night to be held and kissed and feel loved again. Things are supposed to get easier but as time goes by I feel like there’s less and less chance of being with him again and that’s only making things harder.

My bed. I would really like to get in it and hibernate through winter. Everything sucks right now. New piercing Monday hopefully will cheer me up.

“Relationships don’t work they way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won’t they? And then they finally do, and they’re happy forever. Gimme a break.

Nine out of ten of them end because they weren’t right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I’m telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven’t.

Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y’know, in some cultures, a chicken.

You can call me a sucker, I don’t care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: it’s couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down.

One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it’s right, and they’re real lucky, one of them will say something.”

40 days til my birthday! Went and dropped off tattoo sketches today and made my appt for my birthday. So pumped.